While I'm at work...

It has been a really busy month for Kyle and I... constantly on the go! We are both working as much as possible, and trying to just save up most of the money. It causes us both to be really stressed which is NEVER good... the only time we really get to see each other is to sleep... usually that's not at night, and it's only for a few hours. Poor little dayzee has had one thing wrong with her after another... the left side of her face swelled up like a balloon and she would just scratch it raw... when kyle and i finally got all of the infection out, a little sticker was stuck in her face... and to think I was just about to take her to the vet and pay probably $300 for the vet to look at her, give her an antibiotic and tell me to wait until it worked its own way out. And now she is sick again... i have a pretty good idea of what is causing all of this, or at least aiding to it, but i'm just gonna keep my mouth shut for awhile. I find that the only time to update this is during a grave shift when I'm too tired to even think anyways. Kyle sold his truck... finally! We got a car that is saving us almost half in just the payment and so much on gas! We'll get another truck someday, but in the meantime, we both realize there are more important things in life than having a big truck. We're going down to Vegas this weekend for Parker's blessing... it's very exciting for us... we can't wait to see our families... it's been a long time. Other than that... we are so busy there really is nothing to report... i'll try to post some weekend pictures next week on a grave...

What should I even do with this...

I'm really not that into blogging... I'm not super social and I don't feel like people care about my boring life to come on here and read this, wait, I know for sure Mel does... but for now, I will consider her the exception, not the rule.  Besides the fact that I'm working 7 days a week... sometimes with only 8 hours in between a shift and nothing really to show for it, except my huge school bill (that I am planning on paying all by myself without the help of my dad, hopefully).  I never update this thing, I honestly have no time, except for when I'm sitting on a grave shift, trying to stay awake and with honestly nothing better to do.  The free time I do have I try to spend with Kyle, who I'm sure is sick of me never being home and running around frantically trying to take care of him when I am.  I don't even know if I want to keep this... I feel stressed to keep it updated but at the same time, stressed with how little time I have to do it.  I can't even post any fun "Check out what we did this weekend" updates, because our weekends consist of sleeping in because we both get off around midnight and need to unwind, causing us to fall asleep around 2 or 3 and waking up in enough time to get ready for work.  I love kyle's response when I apologize for not having any time "It's how it has to be right now, it will get better"... but I know it won't for awhile.  I'm trying to set up a meeting time to meet with a professor from school who will help me study for the LSAT.  I want to take the test in October, but I'm already a few months behind.  I should have started in January... but I didn't, and now it is almost June.  I can catch up though.  But I'm also considering finishing my degree completely, and then applying to law school.  So that means I would apply in 2010, not 2009.  It's all up in the air, but it is something I'm looking into.  Kyle and I did get to go home for Mother's day weekend.  My little brother is on a mission and got to call home, so I was super excited to talk to him!  He got to talk to Kyle as well, which was so special for me because Jay didn't get to come to the wedding and he was probably the person I wanted there the most.  We went 4 wheeling with my dad in Mt Charleston that weekend as well.  My dad absolutely loves those toys and loves to take them out any chance he gets.  And dad LOVES Kyle because they share a lot of the same interests, so it's like a "friend" for my dad.  We don't even know when we will get to leave Cedar again, considering my work schedule, but as soon as we figure it out, I will be the first one in the car!  So to make a long story short... this may be my last blog... I will probably cancel this and start new when I have time and a better life :)

What a mess... the most honest and real i'll ever be...

I'm not sure how into this whole blogging thing I am... I don't know who really checks this and to be honest, I don't care... but I need an outlet.  I have spent almost everyday on the phone with my mom (she is the most amazing mom ever) crying.  And yet, I have nothing to cry about... here is the situation...  

I was taking a medication on a trial basis... The dr said this one would be good for me, and although I am always somewhat skeptical of dr's, we went over all of my issues and this seemed to be the best option.  I took it for a little over 5 weeks and the whole time just felt completely yucky... I don't even know how to describe the yucky feeling, I just didn't feel right... I had a constant feeling that I needed to stop taking this medication, so I did.  And now everything is awful.  We think the medication messed with everything... I spent all of last summer getting help for my addictions, which we all thought I had overcome... but I find myself constantly turning back to the "simple solution".  It's back, and not as bad as it used to be but needless to say, I'm back to my old habits.  I'm irritable and moody all of the time... I snap at the smallest things.  I find myself wanting to be alone more often than not and I'm constantly unhappy with everything.  So I call my mom everyday to tell her how no one (especially Kyle) has done anything wrong, but I constantly find reasons to be mad... if Kyle is completely perfect, I'm mad that he is so perfect and I'm such a b*tch.  Anyone who has been around me the past 2 or 3 weeks has definitely noticed a difference.  I'm not me...

So 2 days ago, my mom decided this needed to stop.  She and my dad have offered to pay any medical bills I may acquire while getting treatment, but the ultimate decision is that something needs to be done.  But the decision is mine.  I am currently working 2 jobs and don't know if I can afford the time off of work to drive to and from Vegas every month... and this past summer was hard... I'm not saying I'm not up for a challenge, but I watched what I did to my family and still look back broken hearted that I could ever do that, to anyone.  But the reality is, I'm not well... I am sick and I need help... but admitting it is hard and going through with it is even harder.  We are currently looking for a good dr is st george, but I still don't like the idea of going alone... what a mess.  This is one of those things I just want to be over with... 

Ghetto Style

Talk about ghetto... but when I called my dad... apparently no one in the household knows how to email a picture (that may be something that we will all be learning over Mother's Day weekend) so I went on facebook and Alan had posted some picture... So considering I did grow up in the ghetto... I took them off facebook, and now I pretend like they are mine :) So this is Parker... I don't believe he has a middle name yet... but I haven't talked to anyone about that! I am so excited!!!!


Parker is on Sheena's lap and Alan is holding my little buddy Conley






This is baby Parker... I already love love LOVE him!!

Welcome Parker!

Alan and Sheena had their little baby boy this morning... Parker ????? LaPratt. I know he was 7 lbs 5 oz (I dont know how to write that in baby sizing) but since Kyle and I won't get to go down until Mother's Day, that's all I know. I know he is very healthy... all 10 fingers and all 10 toes! Hooray for Alan and Sheena! And welcome home Parker!

What a Sh*tty week!!!!

What a crazy week!!! and I need an outlet, so here I go... Monday sstarted off with kyle having to work... we didn't have school and him working in the morning meant I got to sleep in, with NO distractions. He called me a little after noon and told me that the mentally handicapped girl that he watches attacked him... he is stronger than her, but she did grab around his neck, dig her disgusting claws into his neck and pull. When get got home, I recleaned everything for him and he just wanted to relax. We finally decided to have his work pay for him to go have it looked it, just incase she didn't wash her hands and it was infected or something like that... so by the time we decided to do that, the place was closed. Kyle had a hard time sleeping that night... restraining her took most of his energy and his nexk was sore from where she grabbed and pulled. So we went to the Dr's the next day and they said he was not infected but to watch it, incase something came up. No biggie, I'm glad we checked.

The weather changed on us once again. It was so nice out earlier this week and then, towards the end... SNOW! I flippin' hate snow! I am sick... once again! My whole body hurts and all I want to do is sleep! It is awful! My throat is swollen and I was starting to warm up. I have been taking Advil and Tylenol to try to keep any fever away... everytime the weather starts to get good then randomly and quickly turns bad... I get sick!

And then yesterday happened. What a sh*tty day!! I was super excited because Grandpa Avance was helping me with an assignment I had in my Criminology class and I was finally going to have some time to work on it. Kyle was working at 3... and I had all day to make my assignment as perfect as I wanted (well, as it needed to be so I don't spaz)... and then I get the phone call right before 5... that little b*tch bit my husband! She went psycho and Kyle had to restrain her 4 times! That is ridiculous! She for some reason hates him (and he was so good to her) and takes out all of her anger and frustration on him! It makes me so angry! So I met him at an Urgent Care here and he had to get a new Tetnus (I have no idea how to spell that) shot... just incase. They drew blood and will bring him back next week if more work needs to be done. His arm was bothering him where he got the shot and we were at the Urgent Care for about 2 hours! I am begging Kyle to look for a new job... this is ridiculous and it makes me nervous everytime he goes to work! Homework had to be put on the backburner! We had a hard time getting to sleep... Kyle's arm was bothering him and I had so much to do! But everything turned out ok...

I made a really big decision. I'm not ready to tell the world, but Kyle knows and I told Sheena (my sister). I am praying that its the right decision for us, but I'm sure it is. Kyle is happy with it and that is really all that matters to me. We'll see how it goes. So for right now... that's been the week!

2 weeks...

Happy 2 week anniversary kyle!  We have been married for 2 weeks and it has been so fun!  It is fun having my best friend everywhere that I go... and it's fun introducing him as my husband!  I love it...  and I love not having to wait for Kyle to get there... he is already there with me!  

Other than that... our past few months have been so stressful so I'm glad that all of that is finally over.  I can get back to school (which is not doing too well this semester, which makes me really upset) and I can work my butt off for the last few weeks... then it's summer break.  Kyle and I have been thinking of some fun things to do this summer...but we haven't come up with anything for sure.  We definitely want to go camping (I know, Shannon doesn't camp, but I will) and maybe do some short weekend trips!  I'm glad we can finally relax and settle down!